Last night I turned 30 and spent the night in a room with 8 other people, who a week ago were strangers. Just after 9 pm we were completing our final ceremony and the group decided to sing me happy birthday. Maybe it was the medicine, maybe it was the genuine bond that we had formed in such a short time but it was one of the most beautiful things I've ever received. This picture was taken by me in the depths of my trip when we decided to sleep outside for our last night. This place has changed me forever. I am so grateful. I got everything I asked and more. The lessons i learned here I will carry with me for life. Thank you #newlifeayahuasca for your hospitality and doing what you do. I hope to be back when she calls me again 🌿💚
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It finally hit me, why I had gone on so long feeling misunderstood... People only listen to every third or so word I say. Just as we should speak concisely and with clarity, so should we listen. Imagine how many people would feel understood if others were *actually* listening..?? #listen#speak and #understand with #integrity#evolve#humanity#musings
At times, life will throw us certain challenges that seem so difficult, so nearly impossible to overcome that we strain to imagine how we will possibly make it through another day. From the moment that we wake up, this inexplicable sense of anxiety, this deep gut cutting, solar plexus wrenching feeling just seems to take over the commands through our day, painfully dragging us along all the way to the moment we are there, in bed, all alone in our minds.
We lose touch with hope, doubt that our lives can get better. We feel that doom has us cornered, confining us to an existence of misery, or loneliness, even worthlessness.
Somewhere in the distance, we hold this vague remembering that the ego is probably rejoicing at this disturbance, another guarantied chapter in its tantrumed-child like existence.
Trapped in this viscous circle, mastered by fear, and this nagging and distant knowing that we hold a deeper knowing to this moment, this experience, we can only wonder if we are fighting some external position that has been imposed or inflicted on us???
Or are we, once more, communicating with the parts of ourselves, the deeper misunderstood parts that have been struggling to live with, to contend with all these emotions that we have spent a lifetime ignoring, pushing away, suppressing, negating? These parts that are the make up, the map of our history that transformed us into the infinitely strong, and also weak, perfectly flawed - being that is us, right now, right here, in this precise moment of anguish.
These are the moments that are handed to us, not by external means but rather as a gift from the deepest part of our souls .
This is the intensity chosen by our own creation, to bring out the warrior state in us so we can once again bear witness to the strength that we always find in the greater depths of our resolutions to rise beyond and above the
storms of life- time after time....life after life.
This gift offers a reflection of who we really are, this immense power, this force of love that allows us to loose our way for a while, knowing that we will always have the strength and tools to find our way home, to our deepest truth.
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